confused!

pata nahi yaar, aaj blog sai baat karne ki jaroorat lag rahi hai, fir sai. I want this moment to stay in my life long diary a.k.a blog.
Aaj bahut confused hu mai, and even want to write this whole blog in hindi mostly because i beleive that confusion is more profoundly expressed and interpreted in Hindi. right now i'm listening to the ek mohabat(taj anthem), ghar ki bhi yaad aa rahi hai. But aaj apsooas ho raha hai, ki mere mid-terms ache nahi hue hai, specially economics, jissme i'm sure to fail. par usse bhi badi problem hai ki i'm not able to decide ki wheather i should go into the second job posting and wait for a good job or just take the currently available ottawa job. I feel really bad that I didn't even get an offer and only got ranked from a studpid cloackware firm in ottawa. I really put in all what i had for some of the interveiws, specially for the RIM interveiws, but not even a rank seriously up sets me. My parents on the other hand as usualy want me to do the opposite, they want me to take the ottawa job and then concentrate on my finals, which i do understand in a way but i feel some-how i can get a better job. What i fail to understand is that is it frustation anger or emotions which make me think like this, which mostly is caused by devasheesh's three offers and his ability to finish the eco parper 15 min earlier than the assigned the time.
I need real guidance from you blog, I seriously want to take the risk but don't know if it will result me in failing 1B. Sometimes i really fail to understand my boundaries, i today is one of those tadays... I guess....